Do We Have Faith for the Journey?
With the deadline for our departure looming (only one week now) our lives are slowly being packed away, revised, thrown away or given away. I’ve been asked a number of times how I’m feeling…overwhelmed? Scared? Excited? At the moment excited, probably overwhelmed and scared for the last day or two. But when I take the time to ponder and let the whole thing sink in – I am in awe. Several people in Christian circles have mentioned the faith involved in such a big change. But while times emerge when we wonder if we are a bit crazy, the whole process has been easy – nearly effortless…almost as if we are going along for the ride.
Earlier in our journey, however, before we dared dream of what now lies before us – times when all we could see was desert…miles and miles of desert – those times required greater depths of faith. With tears streaming down our faces, feeling miserable, vulnerable, and desperate to give up, we held on anyways…even if just by a thread. When we most wanted to run away, we stayed put…those were the times that took the most faith. And those were the times when God moulded us and refined us. He got rid of some stuff that needed to be burned out of us. And we found ourselves drawn closer to Him – closer than we would have imagined possible.
So that the proof of your faith, being more precious than gold which is perishable, even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honour at the revelation of Jesus Christ. [1 Peter 1:7 (emphasis mine)]
There’s nothing wrong with wanting to give up. It doesn’t mean you have only a little bit of faith. When you are most vulnerable and feel as if you can’t take any more but you keep holding on, that is great faith.
So now we find ourselves madly packing and cleaning (uhgg…cleaning) and God has already begun to open doors. Doors that we could not have appreciated or probably walked through had we not gone through our earlier trials. Our strengthened faith means we can look in awe instead of anxiety.
Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. [Hebrews 11:1 (emphasis mine)]
And while we know there will be more of those desert times in order for us to grow…we have seen with our own eyes the other side of the desert, and it is well worth it.